~ Playing Nice with Others – Page 4

January 26, 2016January 4, 2017

You Burned Dinner and Fell On Your Ass. Now What Do You Need Most?

Maybe you slept through your alarm and it snowed three feet. You are not wearing gloves, and are using your window scraper to dig your car out from beneath a drift as fast as you can so you’re only moderately late to work. Then – SMACK. You slip on a patch of ice and you’re on your back, swearing up at the sky. THANK YOU ICE PATCH; MY PRIDE WASN’T INJURED ENOUGH UNTIL YOU SHOWED UP.

Maybe you had a long day, came home and completely incinerated your dinner. Now you’re starving and running around trying to open windows and salvage what’s left of your chicken enchiladas. Then the cherry on top – your smoke detector starts shrieking, almost as if it’s mocking you. THANK YOU SMOKE DETECTOR; I WAS NOT AWARE THAT DINNER WAS A MASSIVE FAIL UNTIL YOU WENT OFF.

We are good, decent people. None of us see ourselves as someone who would kick a person who is already on the ground, right? However, we are all at times the human equivalent of obnoxious smoke detectors and inconvenient ice patches, adding insult to injury.

We become impatient and condescending toward the stressed, busy waitress who mixed up our order. What would happen if, alternatively, we smiled and told her she was doing a great job? (So what if you got queso instead of salsa? The world will go on.)

We giggle with our friends at the gym about the newbie who is struggling on the treadmill. What if, instead, we gave him a high five and said, “Keep it up dude. You got this.” (It might be the difference in whether or not he comes back tomorrow.)

We race and tailgate the speeding driver who is weaving in and out of traffic. What would happen if we just let him go on ahead? (Maybe he’s going to the hospital. Not likely, but who cares?)

We feel insulted and cop an attitude with the cashier who rolled her eyes at us. Why not find something to compliment – her earrings, her hair, her agility with a barcode scanner… anything that will remind her that she lives in a friendly universe? (Maybe she’s worried about not having enough money to feed her family. Maybe the customer before you said something nasty to her.)

It’s not about deciding whether others deserve our good will. It’s not about putting people in their place. (The Universe takes care of that anyway.) It’s about stopping an insidious cycle that, left unchecked, will continue to feed itself and compound:

Hurt people hurt people.

Think about it…

Is being rude to an asshole going to make him nicer?

Is complaining about a depressed person going to help her feel better?

Is teaching a child to be civilized by hitting him setting a good example?

During the times in my life when I was hurting the most, the people who showed up with kindness, support, and understanding were the most instrumental in helping me get out of my dark, sludgy swamps of suckiness. Those who were rude, judgmental, or cruel just fed my story that the world was out to get me.

So come on you guys. We’ve all been on both sides of the road rage haven’t we? Don’t be the shrieking smoke detector, obnoxiously pointing out the obvious. Don’t be the slippery ice patch, bringing someone down who is already low. What is the most helpful, most useful thing to be?

Be the one YOU needed when YOU were in pain.

January 2, 2016January 4, 2017

Smokin’ Hot Shoes Don’t Tell the Whole Story

When I taught music, I would walk onstage the night of performances with a calm smile on my face. My students and I were the only ones privy to the tremendously messy process of preparing a show – (i.e. lengthy rehearsals, squeaky instruments, mixed up choreography, scheduling disasters, and Miss Zook almost losing her SHIT multiple times per week). What the audience saw was a final product, neatly wrapped up and delivered to them in their seats.

I don’t have an actual stage upon which to make a grand entrance anymore. I have this blog, which is in many ways similar to a stage. The words you see here are much prettier than the process of learning the lessons that inspired them.

You see my words about fitness, but you don’t see me in my early 20s with a cigarette in one hand and a bottle of Captain in the other (probably making plans for a 3am Taco Bell run).

You see my words about kindness, but you don’t see the numerous times I was a complete and utter jerk to people I care about.

You see my words about resting and self-care, but you don’t see my major struggle with anxiety-induced overtraining and overworking.

You see my favorite word “Unfuckwithable,” but you don’t see me sobbing on the phone to a friend because I was hurt very deeply by someone else’s words.

You see my words about gossip, but you don’t see the multiple times I listened to rumors, believed them, and passed them on.

You see my words about positive self-talk, but you don’t hear some of the horrible, nasty, unkind garbage I used to say to myself (and which still sneaks in every once in a while).

My words speak to an ideal – the person I want to be. My actions speak to reality – the person I am. My reality doesn’t match my ideal (psst- never will). But it is closer than it was ten years ago. Five years ago. One year ago. Yesterday.

Here, on this blog, you see words that I’ve had time to process, analyze, read, re-read, and edit BEFORE I hit “publish.” (Didn’t I write a post about not being a perfectionist??) Life isn’t like that. We don’t get to proofread or photoshop our days as they unfold. We see each others’ Facebook statuses and Instagram pictures and forget they are only a tiny snapshot of our whole big world. We see the smiling family pictures on the Christmas cards but don’t really know the whole story. We see the smokin’ hot high heels but not the blisters and achey feet inside them (or the unattractive limp the following day).

IMG_4947 - Version 2 — Worth the blisters. #pullingthemoff

Call me wise. Call me fake. Call me ignorant. Call me brilliant. Call me classy. Call me clueless. Call me a bitch. Call me kind. Call me crazy. They’re all accurate. And they’re all just a part of me… not the whole story.

People are amazing. But don’t ever be fooled into thinking they aren’t human.

Life is beautiful. But don’t ever be fooled into thinking that it should always be pleasant.

Black and White? No Thanks, I’ll Live in the Gray Area

What’s Your Story?

Nope, I Don’t Always Take My Own Advice

People Never Change. True or False?

Like what you’ve read? I’m so grateful when you share it. ?

December 28, 2015January 4, 2017

The Most Awkward Hug Ever and Why I Was Pissed About It

Over the holidays I crossed paths with someone who, for many reasons, I am uncomfortable being around. I was prepared to say a brief hello and move on, however was caught off guard when he reached out and gave me THE MOST AWKWARD HUG EVER. I returned the hug, but immediately felt weird. Tense. Annoyed. Irritated. In fact, that hug bothered me for the rest of the day. I didn’t feel right about accepting it. But I didn’t feel right about being an asshole either. What was I supposed to do?

I kept telling myself to quit worrying about it. “Geez Kristen, you’re overthinking this. You did the right thing. You were kind. Let it go.”

“Kind.” There it was. That was the part that bothered me. He had crossed a boundary, and rather than letting him know it, I chose to be… polite. But is polite the same thing as kind? I’ve come up with no.

Being kind is one of my things these days. Hell, I even put it on my facebook cover. But what does that mean to me? I thought I knew, but here was the Universe, putting me in a situation that made me uncomfortable enough to investigate.

The conclusion I’ve reached is that if being polite takes you out of your integrity, then it is unkind to yourself and unkind to others.

Case in Point: I knew a guy once who bragged that he had never broken up with a girlfriend in his entire life. (He claimed it was to protect their feelings.)

“What did you do when you didn’t want to date them anymore?” I asked.

“Well, they always figured it out gradually,” he said.

Was his method polite? Eh, maybe. Was it kind? To string these women along for weeks, months, or even years, until they eventually concluded that this dude didn’t want to be with them anymore? All together now ladies: HELL. NO. Mr. Manners could have saved everybody a lot of time and trouble by being up front and honest about his feelings.

So back to that hug that had me all bent out of shape. I’ve learned that if I’m pissed off, I can always trace the source of the piss-offedness right back to myself. If Huggy McHuggerson felt it was appropriate to come wrap me in an embrace, who was responsible for showing him differently? Oh, right. Me. (We teach people how to treat us.)

Maybe it’s my generation. Maybe it’s just me. (You all let me know your experience with this.) But I was taught to be polite at the cost of my integrity. At the cost of my own happiness. Even at the cost of my morals and values sometimes. Fuck that.

Don’t want a hug? Or another piece of pie? Or to stay in your relationship? Or to go purse shopping with your friend? SAY IT. (There are ways to do so without being cruel.) We’ve talked before about what happens when we find ourselves living lives we don’t want to live. It is showing kindness to yourself when you are true to your integrity. It is showing kindness to others when you give them all the information about where they stand with you.

After chewing on this idea for a while, I saw the weird hug moment playing out in three possible scenarios. A polite one, an unkind one, and a kind one.

Polite (what actually happened that day): “Oh hi, uh, gosh, ummmm we’re hugging. Ok.” *hugs back awkwardly; fumes for the rest of the day*
Unkind (what my ego wanted to do): “What the hell do you think you’re doing? Get the f away from me- we don’t hug!” *shoves hugger-in-question into green bean casserole*
Kind (what I will do next time): “No thanks, I don’t want a hug.” *calmly walks away*

Aunt Kristen will never turn down a hug from this little sugar bear.

As you can see here, I think hugs are great. I love them. But next time I find myself in a situation of unpleasant-hugging-weirdness-which-is-outside-of-my-integrity, I will say, “No thank you!” directly and kindly.

Whew. Glad I got that one figured out. I feel much better now. ?

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